Who are you now?
Throughout My entire life I have always been intrigued by the capacity and abilities of the brain. Everyone is wired differently even the male and female brain produce different chemicals and hormones in certain areas. It is amazing how the brain is the only organ in our body that is not fully developed by birth.When we are born our brains are a blank canvas, eager to be enlightened and filled with knowledge, I was once told that as long as you keep your eyes open you will learn.
Did you know that during your 0-4 years of your life is when your brain learns the most, so when babies are exposed or live in hostile environments such as domestic violence will have an effect on their brain throughout their whole life by altering their brain structure and function. Kids will withdraw themselves from social gatherings and will show persistent avoidance in activities and reduce the expression of positive emotions. One of the most common behaviors of kids exposed to domestic violence or other traumatic events is behaviors such as being irritated, angry, aggressive and they can lose their temper easily, along with having trouble concentrating.
During my internship at mi escuelita, I saw how the experiences these kids had gone through reflected on their personality or behaviors during class. I interned at two preschools one was Mi Escuelita which is a therapeutic school and the second one was Mi Escuelita del Futuro. I wouldn’t have thought the difference between both groups of kids would be so vast, but it was. I know from experience that whatever you see and hear at home will be reflected on you as you grow, everything you see will influence the way you think, behave and react. The kids at Mi Escuelita have very little to no stability in their lives which makes them really overprotective of toys in the classroom, but since they are the classroom’s toys other kids feel free to try to grab them and that’s when aggression kicks in. Kids immediately start to harm each other, but it's not their fault they have adapted to live in fear so when someone tries to take away another good thing in their life even a toy they try to protect it by reacting aggressively.
I have lived through really traumatic events during my childhood that happened to my family and that affected me a lot growing up and it still does. When living through a traumatic event kids can withdraw themselves from society and I could definitely see myself in the shyer kids, I was an introvert and still struggle with opening up to people. People sometimes tell me I have a big group of friends, out of that group of friends I can say that only 1 one of them knows me well. It is very hard for me to open up even to people who I know care and worry about me. This experience also taught me to let go of things that harm you, negative thoughts, past experiences and stress, just like kids do. Kids could cry about a toy being broken one moment and play with another one the next. I will no longer hold myself back, I will no longer let my past affect who I am.